meh
I really can't be assed.
I'm so tired after last night. I was at a ceilidh until about 11.30pm then I got to my friends at midnight to join in the sleepover
It was good.
But at the ceilidh me and my ex, Scott, became a bit touchy-feely. Holding hands, hugging, kisses on the cheek etc...
I feel bad but at the same time I love him so much and I always forget how much I do because I hardly get the chance to see him anymore but last night I think we both had missed each other.
And I told my friends when I got to the sleepover and they're telling me to break up with my boyfriend if I don't love him but I would feel so bad. Our martial arts instructor and our parents would be devastated and I would get the blame. It's happened before.
And then at 3am one of my friends said he had previously lied to me about me being his first, apparently he told one of my other friends that he had slept with his ex.
Now I have no idea who to believe.
I just want to go to sleep and never have to wake up and figure stuff out. I'm stuck between losing my boyfriend or my best friend.
Life sucks.